Me, or: What it's like to be human [Part I]

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Photographer. Writer. Idealist. Wannabe-intellectual observing and criticizing society. Obsessed with personal growth, as there is nothing more crucial than understanding oneself in order to locate one’s own being in this madness of existence.

I yearn for authenticity. I crave truth in life, in people. Something real, something beneath our societal masks and shells fed by fear of being misunderstood, by resignation, by a hurting soul. I believe we’re here for connection. We are social animals, higher mammals with a deep sense for interpersonal relationships. It’s not about being sociable, it’s about stimulation of the soul’s longing to be understood and overcoming the illusion of our separateness.

In this post, I don’t tell you what kind of food I enjoy, or what cities I’d like to visit; what movies I can watch one hundred times or why my skin is somewhat brownish. What quality does such information have when you've never met me in reality, never had a true conversation with me in depth, about the things which really count? My fears, my joys, the reason why I bother to stand up every single day and throw myself into this messy world around us. 
I know, I’m weird, there’s something wrong with my approach to getting to know people. I want to learn about the deep stuff first and then, later on, enjoy the sweetness of unimportant small-talk. Even worse, I believe I’m absolutely right about that, as I met the most amazing people in my life not by ‘being nice’ and chatty and engaging in shallow talks about this or that, but by being real and showing my true self, with the high chance of being misunderstood, disliked, left alone. And, of course, with the only chance of finding soulmates, finding genuine connection with another soul and being. What’s one hundred superficial acquaintances worth when my soul longs for two or three people with whom I can truly share my all, in all its vulnerability, in all its fractured beauty?

Now, to write at least something practical and not just pseudo-philosophical shit no one can work with, I’ll give you a few keywords loosely linked to interests of mine. 

emotional intelligence – Serdar Somuncu – higher consciousness – Effective Altruism – Romanticism – pluviophile – Indie/Indie Rock – Grammar Nazi – Brené Brown – poetry – Coldmirror – melancholy – skepticism – Nietzsche – veganism – wholeheartedness – empathy – Digimon – Andrzej Sapkowski – Post-rock – nyctophilia - Utilitarianism